Today's Journal Entry
17 March 26
Today’s journal entry:
Lord, here I am.
I’m sitting at my computer.
I thought I would have something meaningful to say after all You’ve been showing me this season, but all I seem to be able to do is sit here with You.
Is it resistance?
Or is it maybe just not time.
Not yet.
Over Lent, I have been praying the prayer by Mother Olga, “Empty me, fill me, use me,” and there has been a stripping away of layers the world has plastered on top of the me that You created.
You’ve been showing me where I keep myself on the outside, looking in.
Where pride and judgement have taken hold from what originally began as self-protection.
Something I know You’ll have to do again and again as life in this world means walking with both brokenness and holy joy at the same time.
You met me out on the porch.
And now having followed you through the doorway, I am on the inside with You in a holy pause. A space where I am taking it all in and sorting out what is there. Ready to receive what has been mine all along.
Empty me.
Fill me.
Use me.
Amen.
I debated whether or not to publish this journal entry. Wondering if it would make sense to anyone other than myself without more context. But I have the feeling it is something to be shared.
Maybe it’s for you. Maybe you need to ask yourself what He is wanting you to notice. How are you being reshaped?
“Progress isn’t always visible. Some of the deepest work happens quietly.”
-Heidi Swapp